WELL.
I've just realized something very important.
I thought that I didn't like anyone (like like) right now. I thought that I was inbetween things, off men, waiting for college, and all sorts of lovely things like that. I told someone, and was convinced it was the truth, that there was no one I knew that I would consider going out with.
But it's not true. And I just realized it. I got an email, and it made my heart pound. And I'm smiling now...in the way that I haven't smiled in about 6 months. And even though I know nothing is going to happen ever, because of situations and circumstances, it's really nice to feel like this. To know that if (impossibly, but still) we ever went out, I would prance about my room, plan an outfit with care and attention to little skirts, sing loudly and joyously to World Party, and be nervous. It's Really Really nice to know (emotionally as well as intellectually) that I am capable of feeling like this about someone other than he-who-must-not-be-named.
And no, it's nobody reading this journal. And no, I'm not going to tell you who it is. I guess in the long run it's not important who it is. What's important is that I believe that I can be happy that way again.
*grins*
*does a little "recieved an email from the boy I like" dance*
*smiles*
