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So, many interesting things have happened lately...but in the grand tradition of Emma's Blog, I'm only going to tell you about soccer!

Today was the day of the All-campus, Ends vs Means soccer game (ends being the seniors and freshmen, means the sophomores and juniors). so anyway.
Have I told you about being appointed to the Woman's Athletic Advisory Committee (or Council or something), which hasn't met yet or anything, but yanno. EXCITMENT.

So Anna and I go to the game, and Mr. P was like, we need captains! One guy one girl for each team. And I was the Means Captain! Hotness, except that meant that I had to be in charge of substitutions of the team (with my more experience co-captain)...a team composed mostly of older guys, a bunch of whom I didn't know at all. FUN. But I did get to play a little bit, and totally rocked the house. Well, yanno, sort of. Which is about as much as I can hope for when playing with the guys. I had one really smooth defensive move. And I got my feet on the ball while I was playing offence, which is maybe a first for co-ed. MUCH JOY.

anyway. Am looking forward to a grand soccer season ahead of me. You may also look forward to a vast number of SQUEE SOCCER posts, as Lisa calls them.

So, bed. Definitely bed. G'night all!

Well, I'm back, and glad to be here.

Most everything is amazing...there is one thing that I'm feeling a bit sick about, but I'm not going to go into that. Meh.

The Amazingness that is St Johns:
1) Classes. Mainly, Seminar, the only one I've had so far. AMAZING. I talked, said good things I think, liked the people, LOVED the tutors. *hearts* I have the wife of my favorite tutor from last year, and I totally see why they're together. YAY. As far as my other classes go, I've done bits of work for most of them, and enjoyed it. It's nice to be back, and thinking again. Hoorah!

2) People. YAY! I missed everyone SOOO much. It's kind of nice that I didn't really talk to many people, because now I'm like, DUDE. Also, have met a bunch of cool freshmen, and some nice, hopefully not sketchy, Santa Fe transfer students. (2 of whom are in my seminar!)

3) (okay, sorry, here's the obligatory soccer squee post...) Mr. P (the athletic advisor/tutor/whatever) stopped by while I was reading on the front steps this afternoon, to ask me if I wanted to be on the Women's Athletic Advisory Committee. So I said "YES"! Of course! *does a little dance of soccer joy*

4) parties! yay! went waltzing last night, which was great. also did the new year's party thing, which rocked...particularly because I'd paid my reality dues this year early, and was welcome to the beer. pregamed with alex and lia and anna, so the beer wasn't as offensive tasting as i usually find it. ;) Talked excitedly (and a little tipsily) with a bunch of new students (fe's and frosh). Came back to my room, and was asleep minutes after my head hit the pillow. BEST FEELING EVER. I envy those of you for whom that happens every night. Although, i guess then it's not the AMAZINGNESS that it is for me.

Anyway, to sum up? St John's = Amazing. And SOCCER!!!!!!

*giggles to self, and then goes to bed*

Tonight is my last night in the 'meadow. *is sad*
This afternoon, Lisa came over and entertained me whilst I packed. Before she came over I ran inefficient errands, and vacuumed. Little!laura came over around dinner time, and we trecked over to Lisa's house to have mac and cheese. (a fine way to spend my last night in town). I came home pretty early cause I was tiiiired, and watched the olympics for a while. Spotted a really hot swimmer, but didn't catch either his name or his country, so I doubt I'll see him again. ;)

In other news, I am all packed, except for two pairs of pants drying in the basement, and a shirt. Oh, and my hat and tennis racquet, which I don't have a spot for yet. Whoops.

Tomorrow, I'm for the bank, and transfering all my money out of my accounts into my parents, so it doesn't show up in my financial report. Ah, college. I suppose, since I should probably be trying to pay for college anyway, this is for the best. Damn, it's expensive. *shakes head*

Wrote a thank you note for the thank you note from Sabine and her boys. (have discovered that what is pronounced Sabina is actually spelled Sabine. yay!) Felt sad again that I will not see henning for a while. I wants him so bad! He's the best baby ever.

Anyway. Am filled with antici...




pation for going back to school. Am both nervous and excited and sad and happy, and my emotions are running wild! Look, there they go, over the back fence, to freedom!

Anyway...thank you Carly and Lisa (and Henning) for making my summer. I miss you already!

So tonight. We went out to dinner with little!laura. Which was a blast. And then watched the first half of 16 Candles. It made me feel old. The first time I saw it I was younger than 16, and they were so grownup! And now, I'm like, man, the big seniors are 2 years younger than me. Jeez.
Then, we went to Friendly's for dessert and EVERYONE was there. And by everyone, I mean everyone. And we saw John Jordan and Nate Zyla and Evan Don't remember how to spell his last name. Crazy weird.

And what really gets me is how weird this summer is. I hated so much of it...the babysitting was really awful, and I mean really awful, until the last 2 weeks, when it was mainly Sabina's boys (henning and ollie and basti), the one family I loved to bits, and actually looked forward to sitting with. And then the last few weeks, everyone had parties and I saw so many people I hadn't seen all summer, and socialized and shit. And it's like the summer is conspiring to make me want to come back to longmeadow. And it was so awful in the beginning. All I wanted was to go back, and see everyone, and be back at St John's. And then, as soon as I'm actually going back, I'm like, nooooo, longmeadow rocks! Gah.

So speaking of Sabina and the boys, they sent me the BEST card (with a 40$ surprise bonus!) thanking me for being their babysitter, and saying how much they are going to miss me. And Sabina was like, when you started, Henning cried because you were here to babysit (because he's two, and that's what happens with two year olds that have never had a babysitter before), and now, he cries when you leave. And I almost burst into tears myself. I'm going to miss Henning SOOOO much. I want one, not anyone, but one of henning. *sobs*

And speaking of babies...at friendly's, there was a cute little boy who I stuck my tongue out while we were leaving (because that's what I do for little kids. shuddup) and he kind of hid his face, and I smiled at him, and then he held out his arms to me to be picked up and I was like, *melts*

And damn. I'm feeling so emotional now. And it's late and I have to fucking pack tomorrow.

I just wish I could have both at once...st john's and all my friends there, and also longmeadow and my family and my friends here, and henning.

So today I had to say goodbye to Sabina's boys. Henning gave me a kiss and Ollie a big hug. Basti went to bed when I told him to, which is a pretty big goodbye present, I suppose. It was sad to think that if I see them again (which I might, i guess), Henning will be older and will no longer remember me. Because that's what happens. It's happened to me before. Oh well.

Also today, I diddled around on the piano for a few minutes, and now feel at least a little refreshed in time for the music theory of sophomore year. Gah. So old.

Last night we watched The Dark Crystal. It sucked big. I can't even compare it to Labyrinth. Even forgetting that The Dark Crystal does not have David Bowie, and his infinite sexiness.

The night before that we went to Dave's, for one of his big bash type things. Lisa has a good description of that. I tried to talk to the same people that I always tried to talk to in HS, but didn't get too far. I did try though. I really did. I had fun talking loudly about SEX with Amira, as usual. *hearts* It's weird, but I always forget how much I miss her.
And lisa is right to compare it to the OLDen Parties. Before I started dragging her to them, that is. And oddly enough, the dave thing felt the same way that it always did. And by always, I mean before we ever got together, before I got really intense about him. Back when it was just a crush on a friend. And more than any residual longing for him, I was sad. I think because it felt like back in (gosh) late 1999. But then I had hope for this glorious future for us. And now, all I had hope for regarding him was that he'd be awed by my poise and beauty. (which, I'm sure, he was) Meh. did have fun at the party though. I felt at once old and nostalgic, and young and stupid. ;)

In other news, have revealed my scandelous fandom past to the not!boy. He took it well. No fainting, no disowning. So far, so good.
Also, am going to the beach on Friday, and will see the not!boy there! Am v. v. excited. In fact, am worried, because I can picture him there so clearly, that either he will never show up, or it will be absolutely awful. Because that's what happens. *sigh*

*double sigh* Miss the not!boy very much. Am worried that we'll get back, and he'll realize that he doesn't want me anymore, since he did without me all summer, and that will be it. *sadness*

But how could that happen? As I am as beautiful and amazing as I was when I left school, if not MORE so.

My Life in Soundtrack!

Opening Credits: Dog - Ben Folds
Waking Up: Wig in a Box - Hedwig
Average Day: Cross Bone Style - Cat Power
First Date: Kingdom Come - World Party
Falling in Love: It's only Natural - Crowded House
Love Scene: Close to Me - The Cure
Fight Scene: Girl Anachronism - The Dresden Dolls
Breaking Up: Keep Smiling - Clearlake
Getting Back Together: La Vie, l'Amour - Edith Piaf
Secret Love: Ever Fallen in Love - The Buzzcocks
Life's Okay: If You Want to Sing Out, Sing Out - Cat Stevens
Mental Breakdown: For Nancy ('cos it already is) - Pete Yorn
Driving: See America - Grant-lee Phillips
Learning a Lesson: Teachers - Leonard Cohen
Deep Thought: Grace Cathedral Hill - The Decemberists
Flashback: River - Joni Mitchell
Partying: Psycho Killer - Talking Heads
Happy Dance: Blister in the Sun - Violent Femmes
Regreting: Weary Memory - Iron and Wine
Long Night Alone: Everybody Needs a Little Sanctuary - Grant Lee Buffalo
Death Scene: Many Rivers to Cross - Jimmy Cliff
Closing credits: Down To Zero - Joan Armatrading

First! I cleaned my room! This was fun AND satisfying. I listened to the Dresden Dolls really loud, and then, for the rest of the day, I walked around with Girl Anachronism stuck in my head, and was randomly shouting "There I go again, pretending to be you!" No really, with the shouting. Will was like, "Are you okay?" I said I was fine, but obviously I'm not fine, I'm crazy.

Second! I went shopping with my mum, and got the CUTEST little skirt. Hoorah! (it's got snap buttons. and whenever I spread my legs too far apart the bottom two buttons unsnap. yay!)

Thirdly! I went to watch the opening ceremony at Niki's party. This was fun, and I spent the whole time working out what the different countries were called in Greek that dictated their alphabetical position. Discovered that I actually do not remember the alphabet. Also discovered that Janet, who is in a sorority, knows the alphabet better than I do, although she pronounces it differently. Felt nerdy, but useful when I was able to tell them what alpha-theta-eta-nu-alpha was. Thought that the torch lighting was almost unbearably phallic. Oh the Greeks.

Now, I'm going to go read my book, and maybe go to bed. It's good being me. ; )

I had a nice evening. Had a great time with Sabina's kids. Henning was affectionate, and Ollie, Basti and I had lots of fun reading tongue twisters. (I was reading, and was impressive. Probably particularly compared to their parents, with english being a second language and all)
Then, popped by Janet's for a movie about ballet and some gossip. Good times.

It is now very late for a weeknight. Good thing I don't have to work tomorrow morning. I don't think. *runs and checks*

Goodnight all! Much love!

Edited to add: The Dresden Dolls ROCK MY SOCKS OFF. No, seriously, I'm not wearing socks right now. Because of the Dresden Dolls. Aaaaah.

So, the name thing. I'm sorry to be so mysterious, but I've decided I am not at liberty to reveal the origins, as certain parties involved do not know them, and might read this.

Let it suffice to say that ekpinc is (duh) emmakatrinaplaut incorperated. And the company was started (but never trademarked) as a non-profit (mostly) organization in (i think it was ) 2000.

If still you want the full story (which is not as exciting as all this melodrama implies it is), inquire over AIM.

Crazy past few days. Crazy. Really.

Ask me about them sometime. Or, for a brief version of Saturday, go to my LJ. (also ekpinc. because I'm creative like that)

Do we all know the story behind ekpinc?