oh man

So tonight. We went out to dinner with little!laura. Which was a blast. And then watched the first half of 16 Candles. It made me feel old. The first time I saw it I was younger than 16, and they were so grownup! And now, I'm like, man, the big seniors are 2 years younger than me. Jeez.
Then, we went to Friendly's for dessert and EVERYONE was there. And by everyone, I mean everyone. And we saw John Jordan and Nate Zyla and Evan Don't remember how to spell his last name. Crazy weird.

And what really gets me is how weird this summer is. I hated so much of it...the babysitting was really awful, and I mean really awful, until the last 2 weeks, when it was mainly Sabina's boys (henning and ollie and basti), the one family I loved to bits, and actually looked forward to sitting with. And then the last few weeks, everyone had parties and I saw so many people I hadn't seen all summer, and socialized and shit. And it's like the summer is conspiring to make me want to come back to longmeadow. And it was so awful in the beginning. All I wanted was to go back, and see everyone, and be back at St John's. And then, as soon as I'm actually going back, I'm like, nooooo, longmeadow rocks! Gah.

So speaking of Sabina and the boys, they sent me the BEST card (with a 40$ surprise bonus!) thanking me for being their babysitter, and saying how much they are going to miss me. And Sabina was like, when you started, Henning cried because you were here to babysit (because he's two, and that's what happens with two year olds that have never had a babysitter before), and now, he cries when you leave. And I almost burst into tears myself. I'm going to miss Henning SOOOO much. I want one, not anyone, but one of henning. *sobs*

And speaking of babies...at friendly's, there was a cute little boy who I stuck my tongue out while we were leaving (because that's what I do for little kids. shuddup) and he kind of hid his face, and I smiled at him, and then he held out his arms to me to be picked up and I was like, *melts*

And damn. I'm feeling so emotional now. And it's late and I have to fucking pack tomorrow.

I just wish I could have both at once...st john's and all my friends there, and also longmeadow and my family and my friends here, and henning.